Married but not in love!!

So here i am writing into this endless hole of nowhere! Nobody reads my blogs or ever has any advice for me. So as i sat here and watched a romatic movie tonight like a idiot i have realized that i am still not happy in my marriage but im stuck!! I am now 3,000 miles from my home and have a entire condo to move of my things and my 9 month olds things!!! Which i will never be able to do since i am a stay at home mom and college student! The plan was to finish college by may get a job save up the money and leave. Which i am running behind on schedule for when i wouldve liked to finish my college course! It is like everyday i realize how much more i want a divorce. I feel like a maid or slave if you will. I dont feel love at all! I feel like i disguste my husband since i am not in the best of shape after having my son! I cant even sleep anymore at night! I am so restless! Hence it is 2am right now. I dont know anyone here so i have no friends. I basically do everything my husband needs or wants done and he very rarely helps out with anything! I am miserable as fuck!! But i am stuck and have no idea what to do at all! This is a replay of my only other serious relationship! The only thing is im now legally bound to this one. And i need to be able to support my son and i without any other type of help before i could even think about leaving.... i hate it! Being stuck in this place where i dont want to be! I know its gonna be years before i am happy again! I have been so unhappy for years with little bursts of happiness throughout my lilfe! I just want to be happy and not miserable! And i have come to realize that i am most happy when i am living on my own independently, working, and paying for everything by myself with no man in my life to hold me down or back. So what am i to do? I am only 21 married with a 9 month old son. I have no where to go to unless i have my own job and money. Getting a job wont be a hard thing to do once i am back in Connecticut! But having a baby sitter and enough money to pay for a baby sitter and be able to pay rent, utilites, and everything i will need to support my son and i is the hard part! I need to have thousands of dollars saved up before i go back to connecticut just to be on the safe side! I dont know if anyone has ever been in this situation but im sure someone out there has.... even if you havent but you have some advice that would be great!! At first i was only staying in this marriage for my son so he would have both of his parents in his life since i grew up with my grandparents and my parents havent really ever been there for me. But i think his life would be a  lot better if i wasnt with his father! Not only for him but for me as well! Please someone help me in my time of need with some type of advice!!